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In my early 20s, I was a skeptical agnostic. Then my awareness of life and my total being was changed. On entering my room I saw a column of golden light. I fell to my knees. I was transformed by an insight into the true nature
of reality. It was an experience that was for me without president or understanding.
Nothing seemed to have prepared me for this experience, except possibly it was a brief encounter with a priest three days prior.
Although the light appeared to me to be external, it may well have been internal -- as God is both within and without all things.
God is ever present, but unseen by man, except, in symbolic form.
This comprehension of Divinity was an act of grace. It gave me a sense of knowing that everything is all right and I was filled with feelings of transcendent joy. This ecstatic state lasted about three weeks. Then I fell away into despair.
It was beyond my knowledge how to integrate this experience. What action was I to take with my life and thoughts. What to do? I tried to talk with different people, I even tried the local churches. But I had lost what had been given. I felt lost and alone. Grief- stricken.
Unable to reconcile the despair with the ecstatic, I pretended that the event never happened, that my life had not changed. That transcendence was an illusion. Life seemed hopeless. I saw misery and pain in the world. I was confronted with desolation.
I did not see the beauty and joy of life. I forgot that it exists.
But when an event as cosmically important as this occurs things become different, a person cannot fit back into a state of dull ambition and meaningless pastimes. Alcohol is spirit, but not a path to spirituality.
Four months after the event, I left England for Canada to start life anew. In Canada, I hoped that the change of venue would bring a clearer understanding, a sense of perspective, so that I could create a life of meaning and purpose.
The last 50 years have been a journey to reconcile inner and outer experiences, so to find true reality. My faith was semi-hidden by limited beliefs, fears, but my faith is ready to guide, nevertheless.
During this time, I studied many theories and beliefs and practiced different modalities such as "Radionic’s," Reiki and "Spiritual response therapy." I also encountered many false trails and mumbo jumbo and believed a lot of foolish things.
Eventually I formed my current understanding. I endeavor to update my concept of life, as the world changes.
Fortunately all beliefs are subject to change and clarity. Including, all dominant religious, scientific, medical and ontological beliefs.
With an open heart and mind we can connect to our inner clarity and free ourselves from illusion. The eternal reality of God is an integral part of our being and Divine knowing is available to us. But we must be ready, then take action.
Nothing seemed to have prepared me for this experience, except possibly it was a brief encounter with a priest three days prior.
Although the light appeared to me to be external, it may well have been internal -- as God is both within and without all things.
God is ever present, but unseen by man, except, in symbolic form.
This comprehension of Divinity was an act of grace. It gave me a sense of knowing that everything is all right and I was filled with feelings of transcendent joy. This ecstatic state lasted about three weeks. Then I fell away into despair.
It was beyond my knowledge how to integrate this experience. What action was I to take with my life and thoughts. What to do? I tried to talk with different people, I even tried the local churches. But I had lost what had been given. I felt lost and alone. Grief- stricken.
Unable to reconcile the despair with the ecstatic, I pretended that the event never happened, that my life had not changed. That transcendence was an illusion. Life seemed hopeless. I saw misery and pain in the world. I was confronted with desolation.
I did not see the beauty and joy of life. I forgot that it exists.
But when an event as cosmically important as this occurs things become different, a person cannot fit back into a state of dull ambition and meaningless pastimes. Alcohol is spirit, but not a path to spirituality.
Four months after the event, I left England for Canada to start life anew. In Canada, I hoped that the change of venue would bring a clearer understanding, a sense of perspective, so that I could create a life of meaning and purpose.
The last 50 years have been a journey to reconcile inner and outer experiences, so to find true reality. My faith was semi-hidden by limited beliefs, fears, but my faith is ready to guide, nevertheless.
During this time, I studied many theories and beliefs and practiced different modalities such as "Radionic’s," Reiki and "Spiritual response therapy." I also encountered many false trails and mumbo jumbo and believed a lot of foolish things.
Eventually I formed my current understanding. I endeavor to update my concept of life, as the world changes.
Fortunately all beliefs are subject to change and clarity. Including, all dominant religious, scientific, medical and ontological beliefs.
With an open heart and mind we can connect to our inner clarity and free ourselves from illusion. The eternal reality of God is an integral part of our being and Divine knowing is available to us. But we must be ready, then take action.
